* % The sunrise is simply beautiful .. #* It gets more beautiful when you're here beside me

Monday, March 10, 2008

{In Loving Memory of Mr Tan Teow Seng}

This is a tribute to a very important person in my life. He played a very crucial role in helping to mould my attitude in life, work and other aspects. Without his guidance, I would have been a lost sheep in a flock and could never have learnt so much in life. He taught me more than work itself. He helped me to identify what is important in life and his selflessness has been more than an eye opener...

I remember the time we first met in the Innovative conference room... You were sitting down alone with seriousness in your eyes. The deadline is close. The IBS 2004 is just round the corner and there are serious matters to be organised in a limited time.... You came across as someone that is very stern and serious to me. Would you be approachable? Would we get along? Thousands of thoughts were running through my mind....

It didn't take long for us to click. For me to understand your meaning behind your stern strict face. All you wanted was to educate and teach me things. There are many reasons behind things you do and the more I get to know you, the more I realised. The hidden meanings and the beautiful teachings. You taught me a lot and allowed me to make mistakes. Mistakes that could turn out to be gravely but because of your willingness to let go, I learnt to be more independent and make decisions on my own. Without you, my first couple of years in the society would have been very superficial. Thank you for the faith and trust that you had in me.

Your death came as a sudden news to all those around you. All those that grieve for you. Byron told me the reason: 他是癌症复发,外加胆上长瘤,压迫胆管，后来做手术插入一个导管，将废物排外体外，但因细菌感染，反反复复发烧，最终致死的原因，不是因为癌症复发，是因为细菌感染. That was such a shock to me.

The following are three different tributes to my beloved Mentor:

Watching as the days goes by

Touching the heart whose those had cried

Photos of memories will be in mind

Never will your legacy die

Existing in the time of you and mine

Tears, with which that can't be dried

Sadly missed by all who remains

Grateful for the chance of knowing you

Waiting for the time to be reunite

Goodbye my dear mentor!

You've been more than just a passerby

Not in my life. Not in time.

It'll never be a real goodbye.

Till we meet again is right.

Fond memories of you will live

In the hearts of all that that seems....

My time has come

I am at rest

I am the sunset in the West

I am the clouds that race above

Watching over those I love

May your candles burn brightly

In the darkness of the sky

Showing the path that I have light

Today we all cry

Tomorrow we all smile

As memories of you flood through our minds

Knowing you are now enjoying your afterlife with style

You will be sadly missed

In our deams, we will meet

In our hearts, you will remain

Till the end, our devotion to you will never end.

I am thankful for the time that I had with you. Grateful for the chance to have met you. Lessons learnt and opportunities given. Opportunities that would never knocked twice on the door. Thank you for everything, Mr Tan. You will live in my heart forever.

|6:16 PM|

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

{Disappointment!}

Why is life fill with disappointment? Maybe it's because people have expectations. What do you do in situations where you rely on a good friend who gives you her words and then never ever make any effort to keep in touch to let u know about the updates? I am grateful for the fact that she has offered to help and is willing to do so but now that time is running out, I am left with not much alternative. To relieve myself of some financial burden, a kind and good friend of mine offered her dad's time share apartment in Qld to me so that I can stay there during my brother's graduation. I was so touched and grateful.... In order for things to be processed with plenty of time, I gave her the full details of everything by Nov 07 and the stay was to be in July 08.

A lot of things happened in her family. Her grandma got sick and died recently in Jan. It is a hard time for her family to go through but till date, her dad hasn't been able to get in touch with the time share resort. I know I shouldn't be relying on her totally but because she and her dad has given me their words and assurance in the beginning, I did not bother to search for alternate accomodation. Today, I was informed that I might have to look for alternate accomodation. The problem is July is school holidays and most places have been either booked out or they are not within my budget range. The cheapest I can find is more than 1.8k for a week's stay....

There's no committment on her part to help me at all. She doesn't have to at all but because of her words, I didn't feel the need to look for alternate accomodation. Because of that, I am now at a disadvantage. I can't find any accomodation at an affordable rate and most of them are fully booked out anyway.

What a let down! I know she's not oblidged to help me at all but isn't a promise supposed to be worth more than gold itself???

|4:51 PM|

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

{Merry Christmas 2007}

Dear friends,

Haven't been updating my blog for a long time. I did went home for 3 weeks before starting my new job and got to spend some time with my precious babies. I miss them so much and I still miss Muffin heaps. Only a couple of nights before, I cried myself to sleep because of how much I miss her. She's the most wonderful dog in the world and is really special to me. She loves me truly, madly and deeply.... unlike the others (lol....)

Work has been so hectic. I am working close to 50 hours per week and only get paid for 40 (Management don't get OT). However, I am getting to learn a lot of new things and making new friends.

Anyway, Merry Christmas to all my dear friends! Hope the new year brings you lots of blessings and happiness. Have a wonderful new year and best wishes.

|3:17 PM|

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

{Updates!}

In my previous posting which I did in a real hurry, I didn't elaborate much. The photos in my previous posting is of my lao si, a black pomeranian. She shares the same birthday as my brother. Her name is Sooty and apparently, black is very rare in pomeranians. She certainly gets her fair share of compliments whenever we take her out.

Sooty is a very amazing puppy. She was toilet trained in 2 weeks and has won a few competitions that were held in expos and by Pet Stock. She won two First Places and two 2nd Places in the compeittions she entered and she only entered 4. Lol... she won something in everything she entered. Initially, we both decided that she'll never be allowed to sleep on our beds but we didn't really stick to that. She's now sleeping with us most nights except on the nights when she decided that she wants her own space. Keke.... Sooty is a very independent dog who likes her own space and time on her own. She will run into the bedroom and go to her own bed whenever she needs her own space. Very cat- like independent behaviour.

Enough about my new addition. I've been offered a position as an Assistant Manager in a retail shop and I am very likely to accept that job. It offers better security than my current one and has better prospects. However, it would also mean a downgrade in my salary. But the way I am trying to look at it: No Pain, No Gain. I hope that in the long run, this would turn out to be a smarter choice.
If I do, I might be able to go home for a short holiday to see my family. That is what I really hope to achieve but with different complications at the moment, it might not happen! What should I do? The company is offering me 2 alternatives. 1. Take the job that has a better prospect in the short term and disappoint everyone in Sg that is really looking forward to my return. 2. Take the job that starts on the 18 Nov and go home for a holiday.

To be honest, I am in a dilemna now. Not sure which one I should take. Logically, I would have taken the better prospect one but I really miss Minnie and Muffin, not forgetting my best friends and my family. What should I do?

|3:14 PM|

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

{Hello Everyone....}

Hi dear friends,

My apologies for not updating my blog for almost half a year. It's indeed been a long time. Hmmm... where should I start and what should I say. Firstly, I want to apologise to all my dear friends whom I didn't manage to catch up with during my trip home in June. I was home for only 2 weeks and got sick for one.

|8:25 PM|

Monday, April 23, 2007

{Lovely Surprise}

Dear Friends,
My apologies for not updating my blog for so long. I have been quite busy with work and the last thing that I usually want to do is come home and use the computer. Life has been hectic but fulfilling. I can't say that i have achieved much in my one year here in Aus (Yes! Almost one year.... July would be a year) but it has been a liberating experience. I am still the loner that I've always been and find that without Minnie and Muffin, it's even harder for me to make friends. Through my gals, I got to know a lot of great friends such as ST (though I know you more through work, keke), Jes & Josie. All these are the friendships that I would carry deep within my heart and never forget. I find it even harder to make friends here in Aus as I am an introvert by nature. However, I have a good friend here, Nina who is currently pursuing her PhD in Psychology. She has been a great pillar of support for me through the darker times when I just feel like giving up.

Jes babe, I've received your parcel. You don't know how touched I am to know that I'm always in your mind. I can honestly say the same for you. My thoughts are constantly on you and RNB of course. I really appreciate the gifts very much and they're such lovely gifts. I would treasure them always. Thanks a lot! It has been the most lovely surprise and it cheer my mood up tremendously. Thanks a lot babe for being such a good friend.

Twin dear, thanks for everything that you've done for me and my gals. I know I've mentioned that like a hundred million times but honestly, words can't express my gratitude for everything you've done.

Love you gals and I miss you all a lot! More than words can say.... I can't wait to see you and for us to bring our bao beis out! Take care! Love you!

|10:17 PM|

Friday, February 09, 2007

{Disappointing CNY}

Due to the tight schedule in my work, I have disappointed my babies, family and friends back home in Singapore. I promised everyone that I would be home but I can't be. I have rescheduled my flight to 1st of June. I hope that my dearest would forgive me.... Sorry to all my dearests that I have disappointed, especially Muffin.

Life here is still boring and not much is going on apart from work. Fran and I are getting along better now. Hmm.... I've also just bought a new car. It's a Hyundai Accent sedan. Will try to update a pic when I can.

Better get to bed soon as it's close to 1am here now. Take care of yourselves to everyone I care for back home.... and thanks for being there for me.

|12:35 AM|